2/5/21 ###Today is a two steps backward

 I guess it is necessary.  I am going through a slump right now.  How do I know?  I have the urge to smoke cigarettes.

So today, my strategy is to feast after the 2 days fast.

This is staring into the abyss and staring back at me is the dopamine void.

I am experiencing the effect of low dopamine right now.

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I sleep in the afternoon too.  Only after dinner do I feel better.

Actually, this is time for my Spook Therapy.

I think in the future if I have the once-a-week dose, I should be OK.

For the time being, I just have to manage the three variables:

• Sleep Well
• Move More
• Eat Right

10 more days to go.  Then I am back to the old routine all over again.

I never really like Ramadan.  It is like boot camp to me.  So far the only year I triumphed over Ramadan was 1998.  The rest were the months I struggled with depression.

So this year, depression showed its ugly face on day 20.

Keep moving north...

I have 10 days more to hit Silver.  I'll give it my best shot.  I already won Gold for my Walk/Run Interval and I already won Bronze for my overall battle with weight.  Now to hit Silver.

What is my prayer for this Ramadan?

I pray that I will NEVER have to go through Cyborg War 2.0 as a Clockwork Orange.  I had already caused much embarrassment by sending those CLOSING WHATSAPP messages.

All I [] (can) say is DO NOT DISTURB.  I want to focus on my Personal Flight Path.  Do not get me involved in the Primary Flight Path.  I just want to be Din Kenit 227.  [G]olly (Jolly) Green Giant can wait, even it is for the next 20 years.

All is not lost this Ramadan.

This Year's Achievement:

• Won Gold Walk/Run Interval, 10 loops - 13/4/21 (1st Ramadan)
• Won Bronze Overall Weight Reduction, 79 kg - 21/4/21 (9th Ramadan)
• Water Only Fast PR, 11 days - 23/4/21 (11th Ramadan)

I also implemented the SWEE PAWM 24/7 this year.

Very well, these are my leverages for the 40 kg target by July, 10 km Hill by Sept, and 21 km Hill by Dec.

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Tonight, let's calibrate the sleep again.  Since I already sleep the whole day today, I plan to sleep at 12:00 am max.

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