Saturday, 1 May 2021

2/5/21 ***At times I feel like I am in a bad dream

 My life is totally the opposite of the masses.  I am like a Kera Sumbang (Out of Sync Monkey).  Luckily I am not into social acceptance.  Otherwise, the situation might lead to severe depression.

I am exhausted.  When I am in this condition, I feel down.  Especially when I feel that whatever I am doing is futile.  It doesn't help either that I am having distressing dreams and irregular sleep.

Another 10 days before Ramadan is over.  I am going to alternate fast and OMAD LCHF until the end.  The most obvious benefit of this year's Ramadan is the absence of mucus and sinus.

I have to take note that I SHOULD NOT take a break in halfway through the fast and I should not exercise too rigorously.  Still, I am proud to say that I made it to the 11th day.

I do not fail.  I won BRONZE.  Now to focus on winning Silver.  It is 10 kg to go.  The answer is back to OMAD LCHF.  As long as I eat carbs, I will not produce a speedy result.

Should this Vision Quest is about saving the human race, I would have quit a long time ago.  Luckily I have my Personal Flight Path aligned to the Primary Flight Path.



I am experiencing postpartum depression right now.  This is the limit of my mental endurance dealing with the Water Only Fast.  The tell-tale sign is my desire to consume a large number of carbs today.

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