I rather stay at home than killing time talking nonsense.
Definitely, this is the closure of Spook for me.
A nice date too...
I am mentally ready to transform into an Athlete Warrior, finally.
This is a reminder:
I like who I am now.
#traxxfm Res firma mitescere nescit. a firm resolve does not know how to weaken.
No more 3 Cs... Today is the day 5/5/2021.
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I decided to SLOWLY read the book again and at the same time build on the exercises.
This time it is me on my Vision Quest.
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I guess I need to find a cure for my ailment. However, rather than harp on the issue, I focus on what matters, my Vision Quest.
It's about weight. Not about age.
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So today I put External Affairs behind me and revisit them again in 24/12/24.
In the meantime, I just move forward.
That is my Everest. That is the meaning of my life.
Living is what I do between preparing for the Hill Run.
Nothing else matters...
Since I just focus on the sole purpose, the rest are just to supplement my effort to achieve this Vision.
I have FOUR YEARS to work towards it.
I don't need anything else. This is my Final Frontier.
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Every day when I wake up, it is about how to conquer the 21 km Hill.
I breathe, eat, shit, sleep the 21 km Hill.
The rest are the garnishings. This is the main theme. This is what I set to do for the rest of my life.
I train for 3 months so that I can run the hill once. Sounds like a plan.
But first, I got to be thin. I need to hit 55 kg and then scale up to 60 kg.
Hence the weight reduction is my IMMEDIATE BATTLE.
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Very importantly I need to eliminate all forms of External Affairs.
This is a new game altogether. Beginning today, I stick to 24/7 Continuous. No more carrying forward the old story.
This is the Beginning of the Champion Mindset.
The idea here is to keep on thriving without losing any enthusiasm.
Sure, there are hiccups. I have to deal with the embarrassment of Bipolar extremeties. That however should not derail me from my purpose in life.
I can eliminate future occurrences by not dealing with External Affairs.
A man can be destroyed but not defeated
- Hemingway.
Sure I have a major issue with Bipolar. However, that is not an excuse for me not to achieve my goals in life.
All I need to do is manage the variables as I move towards the desired outcome.
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While I strive to be better, I'll be my own coach and motivator.
If that is not enough, I read books or simply watch inspirational movies.
The idea is to exclude from involving in External Affairs.
Let me immerse in this Universe Within for the next four years. I want to know what will I achieve by being in isolation.
Cut whatever, whoever that is not necessary.
I am on a mission here - to be thin and fast so that I can truly be the King of Bukit Kiara.
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While doing all these, I need to be mindful of these three extrinsic factors:
Whether it is real or imagined, it is up to the mind to perceive and conceive, Therefore it is important to guard against my most dangerous enemy; which is depression.
I don't mind being in mania. It is a happy state. My thought might be off the wall but I can still have a cheery disposition.
However, once I am depressed, I can go on a downward spiral.
So today is the last call for carbs. No more bingeing on carbs. That is the first step.
Sugar and starch are very dangerous for me. I need to control my dopamine fluctuation, insulin resistance, and inflammation.
All I need to do is MANAGE HUNGER. That I'll do with coffee.
I need to create my own REALITY BUBBLE. I think I'll do that with 24/7 Continuous.
TraXX is nice and everything, but I no longer involved in Information Warfare. I need to walk this path alone.
The less external involvement I have with the outside world the better. I then can set my own pace.
Ultimately it is still about RUN, READ, WRITE, REPEAT. I need to rely on 24/7 Continuous as my SPV. I need to stay focused.
As it is, my main communication is still with Sarah. It has to be. Otherwise, I will get derailed by External Affairs.
It seems that whatever I focus on expands. Therefore, I need to focus on what matters.
I am still addicted to dopamine. I need to break the dependency.
I need to move away from things and people who make me addicted.
Like for example, I should be able to stand alone. For that, I only need 24/7 Continuous.
Keep scaling down. Do away with the Delusion of Grandiose.
For the next FOUR YEARS, focus on being Din Kenit 227.
Be prepared to forgo the Primary Flight Path and opt for a Personal Flight Path.
In other words, be prepared to live in isolation.
What is the trophy? The 21 km Hill Run. Therefore, the aim is to maximize the number of times I complete the run.
Once every quarter is a pretty nice number. In between, I train, train and train. Until I become a specialist in the 21 km Hill Run.
Everything I do is about maximizing the Hill Run. Definitely no Spook and no carbs.
Even the various other exercises that I do is to focus on becoming a thin and fast 21 km Hill Runner.
The Run is my salvation. I shall dedicate my 20 years to running Bukit Kiara 21 km Hill EVERY QUARTER.
That is my statement of direction. All my energy is towards that. My sleep, exercise, and diet are towards achieving that goal.
I am mentally, emotionally, and physically ready.
So forget about money and spending on extras. I just invest in making myself into a better runner.
Reading is only on weekends. On weekdays, my focus is on writing and exercising. That is purely on Mens Sana in Corpore Sano.
I need to liberate my mind and body.
WELCOME TO THE VOID... Where solitary is a resource.
Rule Number 1: Don't give a fuck and don't fuck up
Rule Number 2: Occasionally I get fucked
Rule Number 3: Always refer to Rule Number 1
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Besides SWEE, I should keep these in mind:
